Finding Light

For this project, I looked carefully at beautiful leaves, branches and needles. When I looked, I wondered about experiences that each plant had had, as it grew during different weathers and seasons. Was there any way to know what the plant experienced during a calm spring morning or a freezing winter night?

 Years ago an enormous pine tree towered over the house my family and I lived in. I admired its size and I appreciated its shade. The tree was full of life and it provided life. I felt awe and wonder as I thought of this tree growing over many decades to its impressive height.

 When I made these images, I chose parts of many plants and trees that were familiar to me. As I assembled each scene for my camera, I hoped to create spaces for visual and mental journeys.

Plants and trees are our fellow beings; fundamentally, they are what we breathe and what we eat. We humans would not have evolved without them.

                                                                       Meditations

These images pay homage to small voices. During many walks by the Pacific Ocean, I was fascinated by the multitudes of stones and shells; I even saw some bones. I think these small pieces of life and earth have their own stories. I always wonder where they have been and how long they have been tumbling about. With these questions, my imagination travels.

One day when I was at home, a bird flew into my window. Much later after this sad event, I gave the bird a story in the image “Painted Bird”. I felt respect for this fellow vertebrate; perhaps I also felt some fear at the sight of the sudden death.

The plants, bones, shells and stones are all related as parts of the incredible web of life on our planet. When seen in such small details, life seems very fragile; but I really think the extensive interconnections reveal a great strength. Over time, stones will become earth; bones will be part of new life.

My working situation allowed me to improvise with light and materials. Each image is a single exposure on film. I constructed the images in actual space. I used various actual layers of translucent materials for each scene. 

 

                                                                           Dreaming A Garden

I wanted to visit the OAEC* gardens in Sonoma County because I had a long-standing interest in environmental issues. When I explored the site, I was fascinated with the beauty and abundance of the plantings. I began to understand how a garden is about hopes and dreams. This three-acre organic teaching garden speaks to goals of sustainable agriculture and harmony with nature.

I made the images at dawn. At this time of day the gardens seemed especially mysterious. In the stillness of dawn, as sunlight gradually appeared, the earth woke up. Insects flew, birds called and the plants also began their daily growth. I was witness to the timeless phenomenon of life beginning. The plants were present like mysterious fellow-beings, each with its own history. The process of growth seemed mysterious and awesome.

I used infrared film for the project. Since this film is sensitive to chlorophyll activity in plants, it records a plant as a living, growing subject. When the plant begins growth activity at dawn, this activity can register on infrared film. Thus, my film recorded what I myself could not see. At this time, I wondered what occurs at the edges of our human existence? By paying attention to the daily cycle of plants, I attempted, at least mentally, to step outside of a human-centered view.

* Occidental Arts and Ecology Center, Occidental, California

 

                                                                           Spring Leaves                     

When a long time neighbor moved away because of health problems, I wanted to photograph her house and garden after she left. I admired her spirit and her zest for life, and I felt that photographing her environment was a way to say a private goodbye. The new owners planned to bulldoze the tiny home; they intended to build a much larger place; perhaps I was also saying goodbye to a way of life.

I became particularly interested in an old fig tree in one corner of the yard. The shapes of the leaves were beautiful. When I looked carefully, I was fascinated with each leaf; they were alike, but each was different. I understood that this tree, like its owner, was a unique individual, with decades of life experiences. The fig tree was the beginning of an extended series of photographs.

Is it possible to take the point of view of a tree? Or of a leaf? The plant world functions more or less outside of our human world. In gardens of my friends and neighbors I am reminded that the positive forces of nature are quietly at work. Growth seems miraculous, and photographing leaves and branches is a way to celebrate this.

These images were made with infrared film. I don't think I could have done this work with any other film. The film is sensitive to light; in addition, it records the heat of chlorophyll growth activity. Thus the film sees what my eyes do not see. Living foliage in sunlight will appear to be light-colored. When lit from behind, the leaves do not seem to be solid. The lighting suggests they are fragile, even vulnerable.

I like the fact that infrared film does not appear to record a fixed moment. These momentary glimpses are impressions. If a moment appears open-ended rather than decisively fixed in time and vision, it suggests a beginning or a change rather than an end.

Since infrared film has an imprecise character the image begins to dissolve when printed in large sizes. This ambiguity appeals to me, and I think it suits the changing and transitory aspects of nature. I think of these images as fleeting glimpses; and how can one hold on to a glimpse?